I have been pondering my upcoming retirement and what I want it to look like. Who do I want to be? What do I want to do?
Ironically, it was my illness that gave me the opportunity to examine these questions. It was a devastating time for me.
For a while, I couldn’t even go to work, and I had to give up every single thing in my life in order to concentrate on simply getting up in the morning and getting through the day.
Dance felt like a raggedly amputated limb, and it hurt so much to lose it that I actually packed up my gear and put it away where I didn’t have to see the dust raining down on it like tears.
Gradually, though, creativity began to clamor for an outlet and I began to quilt and knit and write and explore avenues of creative expression that I hadn’t had time for when I was dancing.
Fortunately, part of my wellness journey has been re-learning to pay attention and listen to my body and to my heart. And, happily, what my heart is telling me is that the dance is still there, just not in the same way as before.
I’ve discovered that I love quilting. I love knitting. I love baking and hiking and gardening, and I no longer want to pursue dance to the exclusion of all else. In future, dance will be only one of many ways to express myself instead of the only way.
On another happy note, I have been thinking lately that I would like to teach when we get to Salmon Arm. Did you see that coming? I didn’t.
Ideally, I’d like to focus on teaching women my own age. Middle-aged women who have “been there and done that” and have women’s bodies; luscious or lean with bellies full of life experience and stories to share simply because they have lived half their lives or more already.
Maybe I can eventually direct a little troupe of 4 or 5 women, dancing with the assaya, baskets or zills… dancing joyful, dancing our stories in the old way. A small student dance troupe like the Allspice dancers of Arabesque Academy: “dancers who celebrate the female spirit at its most glorious time in life… a group of Bellydancers who have lived a bit and revel in their wisdom, uninhibited sensuality and zest for life.”
I could also hire out to work with other troupes… teach a choreography or perhaps come into the studio and rehearse them in preparation for performance. I could do that on a charge-by-the-hour, workshop style basis.
I am very good at troupe direction, if you don’t mind my saying so. My dance troupe Saba and all the accolades we received over the years is proof of that. I’m tough but fair (and a helluva lot of fun). Just ask these gals, lol!
As far as teaching goes, my preference is to work with intermediate and advanced students. Because I don’t want to tie up my time year-round, I envision teaching occasional themed master-classes and workshops instead of on-going classes. I’d like to revive the Special Topics classes that I had started to develop before I was interrupted by illness.
It can be a tricky thing to carve out a niche in a new dance community, but I’m not a political person, and I’m generally easy-going. I’d really like to be a positive-minded contributing member of Salmon Arm’s dance community, if they want me.
I’ve also come to understand that while I will always be a student, I have also stepped out onto that first rung as a master instructor. Yes, I dare to say that out loud. My peers and my community have designated me as such, and it is time for me to acknowledge it. I am still an affiliate instructor with Arabesque International, and that means something.
As for my personal performance practice, I have come to understand that my dancing heart lies right in the roots – the very guts – of Egyptian dance. In the baladi. My mentor, Yasmina Ramzy, saw it in me when she called me “little mama baladi” and urged me to pursue that direction several years ago.
I look forward to finding myself back in the bubble of joy that always overtakes me when I am truly dancing without care.
This is Baladi. This is the rich flavor that sets my artistic taste buds on fire.
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.
9 Replies to “Bellydance after Retirement: the beginnings of a plan!”
Hello Nita, I am taking an anthropology course at Simon Fraser University about Culture and Aging. For my research paper, I am exploring women’s relationship with dance, specifically belly dance, in our society. I am talking to women who have begun dancing later in life, as well as to women who began while younger, and continue throughout their lives (as I hope to do!).
I am working on my paper right now (it’s due one week from today), and just looked online for any further insights…that’s when I came upon your blog! It’s fascinating!
With your permission, I would like to use a couple of quotes from this site–specifically, this: “I have been pondering my upcoming retirement and what I want it to look like. Who do I want to be? What do I want to do? Ideally, I’d like to focus on teaching women my own age. Middle-aged women who have “been there and done that” and have women’s bodies; luscious or lean with bellies full of life experience and stories to share simply because they have lived half their lives or more already. …dancing joyful, dancing our stories in the old way. … It can be a tricky thing to carve out a niche in a new dance community, but I’m not a political person, and I’m generally easy-going. I’d really like to be a positive-minded contributing member of Salmon Arm’s dance community, if they want me. … I look forward to finding myself back in the bubble of joy that always overtakes me when I am truly dancing without care.”
If you agree, please let me know asap, and I can insert some of your wisdom into my findings. I’m glad to have come across your site, in any case. Thanks for posting. I live in Burnaby, but if I come up to Salmon Arm, I’d love to take a few lessons from you.
Take care, Zoe
I just adore you Nita and your amazing heart! I wish you to dance in joy and my goodness those new students you will attract to you are so very lucky to learn from the best teacher I ever had! Love you beautiful friend xxxoooo
Wow! You may have just become my new spirit animal. 🙂
I wish you not only the best of luck, but many opportunities I showcase and share your many gifts!
Not to mention that you will meet some new people in Salmon Arm. Trust me, soooo important to make friends.
Such a beautiful inspirational and inspired post Nita – you move me spiritually in so vary many ways – I love exploring life in my 50’s – it gives you the freedom to grow and give back….. peacefuly 🙂
I think you are an amazing spirit and I think you can do anything that you set your mind to do. Go for it. I know how hard it is to pull yourself back from the brink with depression.
I wish I could take on of your dance classes!